
Fuck the last of my male identity right out of me, please.
…but really, though.

Fuck the last of my male identity right out of me, please.
…but really, though.

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You were annoyed your neighbor wouldn’t stop badgering your girlfriend to get into the pool with him. You didn’t know how to swim and Jules had sweetly promised she’d stay on the sidelines with you in solidarity. But Alex had been relentless, begging and teasing. “Don’t let your your your little scaredy cat boy keep you from a good time.” Ugh.
“Just go in for a bit and he’ll let it go,” you whispered.
“Tell Alex to fuck off and he’ll let it go,” she retorted.
“Heh, come on, it’s just Alex. He’s always like this.”
“Yeah and someone needs to stand up to him!” she breathed, irritated.
“Yeah…it just he’s, kinda scary, you know? Plus, I’m new in town and I think he can help me make friends…” you trailed off, awkwardly.
“Your hot girlfriend isn’t good enough for that?!” she spat, getting up off your lap. “Alright, Alex baby! I am growing tired of this scaredy cat. Show me a good time!” She dove into the pool, still wearing her shorts and tshirt. Oh gosh, she really seemed mad.
Alex didn’t need to be told twice; he cannon-balled in right beside her as she surfaced. She shrieked and laughed, splashing water into his face. They fooled around, shouting and splashing like kids for a few minutes. At one point Alex just grabbed her waist and hurled her fully into the air. The eruption from her landing even hit you.
As she wiped her face and spit out water, you could tell her shirt had floated up a bit, seemingly showing off her belly. She made no attempt to adjust it. At least she hadn’t brought a swimsuit she could show off! Alex had floated away and now made a long lap back underwater to Jules. Was he…checking her out?
“Nice form you’ve got down there,” he said smugly. Jules blushed. “She looks real good, bud!” Alex called to you. Thanks? Then Alex asked your girlfriend, “You want me to show you what a real man can do?”
“Yeah sure, someone has to” she replied, glaring over at you. Fuck, what the hell was going on? He dove under the surface..and didn’t come up. Jules looked nervous. Where was he? He’d been down too long. They were too close to the edge to see where he’d gone. Then Jules gasped. But he didn’t appear? Instead her contorted face stayed that way for moments, as she reached out a hand to the pool’s lip, gripping tight and closing her eyes. She let out another tiny strangled sound and bit her lip hard.
Then Alex surfaced. “Ta-da! I can hold my breath for three minutes!” Jules just stared at him in shock, breathing heavily. She raised her hand up as if to slap him. Then a look passed over her face and she lowered it.
“Show me again.”

Penelope was younger, innocent and had strong feelings about fidelity. She had a bad habit of getting jealous. It took a while to ease her into being comfortable with your female friends at first. And whenever anybody mentioned the existence of sex, especially kinky sex, she’d get very red-faced and have to leave the room. So of course she was pretty vanilla and hesitant, but overall the sex was good, you loved each other, and at least you didn’t have to worry about her cheating!
Or so it seemed. Things started getting weird after Penny mentioned being terribly shy in high school. So you told her about being awkward and your old bully that used to pick on you. At first she cried – actually cried! She was so horrified that you’d been teased and beaten up. You soothed her, saying it was all in the past. She seemed to calm down.
The next week she acted a bit oddly. You found Penelope staring off into space a lot. One time she just pinched you! Out of the blue! You yelped and asked Penny why the hell she did that. She apologized and sheepishly said she was just ‘curious what it would be like.’
A few days later she asked about your old bully again.
You tried to hold back, but she wouldn’t let go. What did he say to you, how hurt did you get, how did you feel about it? She broke you down, and you told the whole painful saga. From grade school rivals, to relentless pranks that became a general campaign of harassment, to the time he beat you so badly you ended up in the hospital. By the end you were crying about it. You’d been repressing the feelings of shame and helplessness for so long. Penny listened to the whole thing with rapt attention, absently biting her lip and nodding along. Though weirdly she didn’t comfort you when you cried, but instead said she had to run off to the bathroom. She was gone for a while and looked flushed when she came back. Had she been crying? Her eyes weren’t puffy or wet, though. “I’m sorry sweetie, that’s so awful.” She hugged you then, and her hands kinda smelled of sex?
Penny only got weirder after that. On the one hand she was obsessed with this bully. She was way angrier than you were at him and made you give her his name so she could look him up. She found Joe on FaceButt. “God, what an asshole! Look at this smug jerk.” You really didn’t want to. It just re-opened the wounds. “Of course he’s a manager at some fancy company. This type of prick gets off on having lots of money and lording their power over others. I bet he takes credit for the work of his employees and negs his female assistant to try to get in her pants! I bet he grabs her ass and HR says ‘oh that’s just Joe’! I bet he cheats on his wife! I bet he has sex with the wives of his employees just to feel powerful! Oh, of course he posts pictures oh himself shirtless at the gym and the beach! ‘Look at me, I’m a middle manager running from his mortality by getting weirdly buff in his late thirties!’” Penny was getting worked up, so you made her log off.
On the other hand, she was loosening up in surprising ways. She had always run from it, but now she asked your friend Kim outright about BDSM. In detail. Penny was wilder after that. Once while riding you she suddenly slapped your face with full force! She came immediately. That was only the beginning… And out of bed, she began sweetly calling you one of the insults your bully used to use. It really hurt. “Oh it’s just a joke, you sissy bitch!” she replied and giggled uproariously.
The really insane part, though, was Penny when decided she needed a part time job alongside her college studies (even though you offered to support her). She ended up as an assistant at Joe’s company! “Huh?” she replied when you told her, “Oh yeah, I guess I’d forgotten. It’s a big company. I’m sure I won’t see him.”
The gods were cruel, though. She was his assistant! “He’s really nice now, actually. I feel silly I got so worked up. I guess people can change,” Penelope said. You were devastated and felt so vulnerable. You even told her how bad you felt and she still coaxed you into having lunch with him and her. He had changed…into exactly the kind of misogynist jerk Penny had imagined! You showed up at their office and saw him yell at his staff and sexually harass a female intern before coming over to you.
“Babydoll, introduce me to your little boyfriend.”
“We’ve met, Joe,” you replied coldly. Joe took your hand, squeezing far too hard.
“Oh! I totally forgot!” Penny piped up, “You knew Mister Adler in high school, right?” She turned to him, all bubbly “Sorry that slipped my mind, sir!”
The rest of the lunch was similarly surreal. Joe treated Penny like a dim bimbo, while she giggled and played the part. He pretended he couldn’t remember you very well and complimented you on choosing “a fine piece of ass”. He followed with “can I borrow her sometime?, haw haw.”
When you asked her about it later, Penelope acted like it wasn’t anything at all. “Don’t be such a dramatic sissy bitch, hehe. Sorry that’s one of Joe’s favorites when dealing with beta men.” Beta men? “I guess he’s really rubbed off on me, hehe. No, I didn’t forget how you knew him, I just figured you wouldn’t want him knowing that I know all about how he humiliated you as kids. I was just trying to spare your little feefees.” You couldn’t just let that go and started telling her how much he’d hurt you and what an asshole he had proved himself today.
*smack!*
She slapped you! In the middle of your tirade. Hard!
“Feel any better, my sweet little beta boy? You needed to calm down down.”
You were so shocked. She just walked away.
Over time, Penelope’s bad behavior only increased. And her part-time gig started taking up more hours until it was upgraded to full time. She was gone for late nights. Her grades suffered and she was talking about dropping out. Not to mention, you had sex less. When you did, she always wanted you to eat her out first. Then she’d ride you and call you names until she came. Sometimes, you didn’t get to. If she let you come, it was on yourself and after she gathered it and made you lick it off her fingers…
It was months later you got an email from Joe, at his work address:
Hi you fucking cuckold sissy,
By now you should have worked out that your girlfriend is my bitch. And what a bitch she is! I had no idea who she was when she showed up at the office. But this young piece of ass cooed at every compliment and insult I threw her way. A bitch like that is a rare find. You need to cherish the ones that love you when you’re kind and love you more when you are cruel. I’d tell you to hold on tight, but I guess that ship has sorta sailed…
Not that I’m taking her! I have a wife and family, after-all. No, I’d prefer you keep looking after her for me. I’m counting on your beta bitch instincts to lead you to eagerly lap up an alpha male’s leavings and bask in the warm glow of your unfaithful girl’s contempt.
When she begged me to go to lunch with her boyfriend, I just saw it as an opportunity to gloat over another guy who’s girl I would soon claim. So much better to have a face to imagine humiliated and dismayed while I defile his little flower. But what a fucking miracle to find my old whipping bitch standing in my office! Ever since you tried to stop me from hitting on your girlfriend in high school and I beat you unconscious, I have been keenly aware of the pleasure of being an alpha. Of taking what I want without remorse. Did you know your girlfriend left your hospital bed that night, teary eyed, and came right to my place to berate me? Did you know I just laughed and told her what a sissy wimp you were and that she should just admit it made her want me? Did you know I fucked her every hole that night while she thanked me for hurting you? Goddamn highlight of my life.
Until Penny agreed to work late with me the first time, that is. I negged her so hard. I told her she was a dimwitted doll who’d never rise above secretary. I told her she might as well just admit it and strip down. Get on her knees where she’d be spending so much time throughout her career. She trembled as she took off her clothes. I was afraid she’d pass out or cum right then. That’s when I revealed I wasn’t just an old acquaintance of her little boyfriend, I’d bullied him and put him in his place, the emergency room. I could do the same for her.
“I know.”
This was a surprise! You shocked too, little strumpet?
“I know exactly who you are and what you did. And it makes me so. fucking. wet. Ever since he told me how you tore him down, physically and mentally. How you stole his girl. Since that moment he revealed his true nature, I have been a changed woman. I have cum every day thinking about what you did to the love of my life. My sweet beta boy. I will adore him forever, but since that moment – these breasts, this pussy,” you bet your ass she was stripping, “my whole body, my very soul, have belonged to you.”
I of course fucked her face, bent her over my desk, came unprotected in her pussy. I told her she was a good girl. A clever girl for figuring out her place in the world.
“Hehe, thanks, Master! But this silly little airhead just wants to be your slave and cum dump for as long as you’ll have me. Oh, and if you find time to humiliate my true love and make him your punching bag again, I’d really appreciate it.”
See you soon, cuck.
-Joe

Who Done it?
The paranoia ate at you for weeks. You couldn’t relax around any of them. Was Brent mocking you? Was Alex smiling too much? Was your wife Lily flirting with Dominic?
Late one sleepless night you broke down and sent an email to all of them: “Which one of you assholes fucked my wife?! She said it was one of you, so don’t try to deny it!”
…turns out none of them had. She’d just been teasing you with a hot fantasy. You were so ashamed. And they wouldn’t let you live it down.
“Hey Lily, do you want to fuck again?” Dominic would joke.
“Oh, yes, baby! I can’t wait, though. Fuck me in his bed while he’s out here playing Dominion with his friends.” Then she’d pull him away to your bedroom and make loud, fake sex sounds. “Yes, yes! I love your gigantic cock, Dom! It’s so much bigger and better than my husband’s! Fill me with your potent seed!” Then they’d stumble out, laughing uproariously.
This went on a for a long time. The joke never got old to them. Each of your friends took turns, sometimes leaving en masse to stage an audio orgy for your benefit.
You were so humiliated. They mocked your touchy, jealous nature. They loved how red-faced and upset you’d get. When you demanded they stop, they’d just laugh and tell you to learn to take a joke. Or tell tell you if you stopped being so irrationally jealous, the game wouldn’t be fun anymore and they’d quit. Sometimes they’d just tease you with a line like, “I’m sorry friendo, but now that Lily’s had my big strap-on cock in her, she just can’t live without weekly poundings.” Lily nodded solemnly. “Alex is right. They’ve ruined me for other men and nonbinary folk, baby.”
Eventually you did grow used to their provocations and stopped getting so jealous and riled up…So they upped the ante. Lily would wear sexier outfits on game nights and ask your friends how she looked. “Is this enough cleavage to entice you to betray your best friend and fuck his wife in his own house, Brent?” Brent smiled deviously, “To betray that loser? I’d fuck you in a burlap sack on his mother’s casket.” Jesus!
But it was the subtle things that really made you mad, though you were now determined not to let them win by showing it. She’d hug each of them for just a little longer than usual and wink at you over their shoulder. She’d put her arm around one of their waists and lean into them companionably, looking comfortable and daring you with her eyes to say something. Sometimes she’d even hold hands with one or two while you were out in public.”I’m so happy my husband’s jealously has brought us all closer,” Lily noted serenely. You seethed but you wouldn’t give in. When Lily started kissing your friends right on the lips, little pecks to say hello or goodbye, you broke and stormed out of the room. They all cheered and laughed. “I kiss my Dad harder than that!” Lily yelled after you, giggling.
One night Lily plopped down into Dominic’s lap while you all watched a film, wrapping her arms around his neck. This was new. She began loudly declaiming his beauty and heroic fucking feats. “My most handsome lover, remember when you smashed this puss so hard it dislocated my hip?” Oh very funny. He took the ball and ran with it. “Remember when you sucked my massive cock so deep into your throat that you passed out from lack of oxygen?” Lily giggled, “actually my head’s a little foggy about that memory, babe. Lack of oxygen will do that.” Dom continued, “but I didn’t want to waste my erection so I pulled down your waistband and jizzed into your panties.” Gross. Surely she was offput by that one? Nope. If anything she seemed more into it. “Fuck! Umm, wow, that’s one way to get a girl wet, you naughty boy. I must have…yes, I remember! I woke up and felt so used and degraded that I fucked you immediately. I came three times, crying out that I was your whore.”
You were getting red-faced and antsy. You really didn’t like how she’d begun grinding her ass into Dominic’s lap while performing this little scene. They were definitely taking the joke too far. “Mmm, I can feel you remembering it, too, Dom. You really are, uhhhh, big…bigger than my husband. Wow. Um, hey, I really need, ummm…Please! Take me on my desecrated marital bed again!” Then they scampered off to the bedroom. Sheesh! Their acting was getting too good…More time than usual passed, in quiet. When you did hear them eventually their cries didn’t sound quite as comical, either…
Everyone looked around awkwardly, not quite making eye contact. Brent tried to hide his erection with a pillow. Alex fidgeted, adjusting themselves too much. After a while Dom strode back in. He laughed but it sounded forced and unnatural. “Haha, sure showed that slut. Ummm, ha, yeah. Lily said to tag in Alex and Brent next. She wants you to double-team her, heh.” They got up slowly, looked at each other sheepishly, then rushed out. You had the largest pit in your stomach you’d ever felt. Was this…real? “Heh heh, umm, relax man! It’s just a joke…” Then Dom lapsed into silence for minutes, “I can’t believe you don’t have condoms, man. Shit! I mean-”
Edited.

You promised yourself.
You promised you wouldn’t be back here, wouldn’t be staring, wouldn’t be lost in tumblr porn again.
But you’re back here again, deep in lost time, stripping for the screen, touching yourself helplessly. You can’t keep track of time, and you can’t keep track of yourself.
Reblog if you can’t stop yourself from masturbating to tumblr porn.

It had taken him years to raise me, but I’d finally grown into the portable, sentient sex toy he had always wanted.
❤️
*gasps*